I'm convinced I'm going to die soon. Nope, this is not me being dramatic as usual. I'm truly convinced that my days on earth are numbered. I'm not tempting fate. I can feel it. And actually I'm ready to go.
There is no way that I can go through so many emotions in such a period of time and not crash the system. The funny thing is that I'm not even responsible for any of these feelings. "Ja, blame others, Sandman", I hear you say. Well, fuck you then! You don't know what you're talking about.
Last night I was at the happiest I've been in a long time, after a rather shitty morning. The shittiest I've had in yonks! But the night was just awesome, thanks to friends who cared enough to want to lift me from the abyss. Couldn't have scripted it in that way even if I tried. So, you see, dear reader, the highs are high, the lows are really low.
Now, today (3hrs ago) I had something that stands to bring me long lasting happiness and financial stability. Now, at 11:12am, as I write, it's slipping through my fingers, fast. And as I said, I have not done anything to bring this upon meself. It's like the universe is playing tricks on me, teasing me, just to see what I'mma do. Tiring. As usual we roll with the punches.
Oh, you? You continue having a fabulous time. Drop me an email, tell me how you're doing. Then maybe I can leave my sad/happy life and live vicariously through you.
As Wawa and Jub Jub would say 'Peace out!'
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