So, the past few days have been filled with laughter, like and 'weirdness'. But it all came crashing last night. I didn't mean for it to come out. Didn't plan for it. But it did. Hey, don't pretend like you don't know I'm talking about my ex-girlfriend/friend/(insert appropriate descriptor here). That's what I've been writing about for the past few months.Y'know I think this blog should be called Things and Girlfriend.
Anyway, we spent the past few days together. Had so much fun. It was like we never broke up. Nothing important was said. We just had fun. But my brain refuses to pretend shit is legit when it's not. So, I had to 'clarify' - against my better judgement. For in the past, I'd try to clarify shit and we always ended up fighting.
This time, we didn't. Maybe it's coz I'm tired of fighting. Maybe she's just as tired as I am. Y'know, I do realise why we fight. Yup, you said it! Even with everything I know/feel, I think I still have feelings for her. So, last night's discussion was about what those feelings are. After a few tequilas, we got to a 'point of undestanding'. I hope she now understands how I feel and I sorta understand how she feels.
Hey, this thing called love... I wish it didn't exist. My world would be easier to understand.
Anyway, we'v come to the end of the year. Drive safely. Don't drink and drive. Condomise. Enjoy the break. I'm off to Durban, then Cape Town.
Sea, sun and sand!
S.
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