I still see her in my dreams

Well, it's been a few years since I last uploaded anything on this here blog. I stopped blogging for reasons I cannot go into at this point. Anyhoo, I'mma try to write again - as I now have more time to write.
2015 has been one of THE most challenging years ever. In fact, it will go down as the most emotionally draining year ever! I lost my dad. I hope he rests in peace. His sickness changed me a lot as I realised the bullshit that we hold on to instead of enjoying life as it is. I lost my family and the woman I love. Again, a lot of childish things and bullshit.

The weirdest thing about this though is that a few months ago, she wrote me a letter tryna make up and fix things. But I suppose she just wanted to justify her decision to move on to the next guy. If I'd said yes, we'd be together. But 'coz I ignored her due to my dad's shituation, she was like 'yaaaaaay, now no one can blame me for fucking with new dude'. Anyway, I still love her with all her shit. And she's got plenty. I've got my fair share that she puts up with, as well. So, it's a case of two halves for real.
Well, she looks happyish with new fella. I hope she's not bullshitting herself. I've dated a few people during the breakup, but none come close to what we'd built with my ex. Sex is one thing, building a future is another.
I just hate that thanks to our arrogance, our daughters will grow up the same way we did.

I promised to wait, so we can fix. But I know it's impossible to wait forever.

Hey who knows, maybe one day I'll write about a good ending to this story. For now, it's shit. With lots of moving parts in it.

2016 is going to be an interesting year.

Peace, peace.